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8.13.2012

Grey Street by Dave Matthews Band

Is a song that I am trying to shake from my brain.
It's that time of the month- yes TMI, shoot me.
Nursing a bit of PTSD (okay that's a bit of an exaggeration) from
doing an act of love that filled me with extreme anxiety to do--but
still did anyway.

Despite my phobia for public speaking,
I delivered a toast at the wedding of my very wonderful friends.

It is not ego talking when I say that I was very honored to be asked--
however I had some mental hurdles to overcome during the days, hours
and minutes leading up to to the moment of the toast-- that I was almost
incapable of doing it but then one look at CK and CB made me remember the following:

1. It is not about me. I should set aside my mental hurdles.
2. If I do this with love in my heart, everything will be alright.

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It's monday, and I woke up faced with the same mental hurdles I set
aside last saturday eve.
After taking a few minutes to center myself, I got up showered and
literally put on my favorite t-shirt that says:
CHOOSE HAPPINESS (thx JB)
I went about my day driving my children to finish back-to-school
purchases and touring a gymnastics school for the younger one...I ended up going rock-climbing with them for a few hours at the facility adjacent to the gymnastics school.
My kids were so pleased with our ability to "live in the moment"
I was just pleased to make it out without breaking my neck.

Today's nuggets:
1. It is not about me. I must practice setting aside my mental hurdles.
2. If I do all things with love in my heart, everything will be alright.